Life Can Be Good
Well, I’ve been here with my girl, H, for over two weeks and things are certainly looking up. I’m feeling better about myself, taking better care of myself (taking my meds, doing my laundry, washing dishes…all the things I just couldn’t seem to be able to do so deep into my depression) and have even started looking for a job and have applied for federal student aide to go back to school. I want to go into nursing, and possibly even in the mental health field so that I can help people that are just like me. However, I’m worried that being in that environment might bring me down, so I haven’t decided exactly what field of nursing I want to go into yet.
I had a wisdom tooth pulled yesterday (lots of fun). It had been bothering me for years and this last week really sent me over the edge so I went and had it taken care of. Finally it doesn’t hurt anymore, and I can open my mouth enough to take bite of actual food (and get off my liquid diet!!). The only drawback is the pain meds they put me on make me sick to my stomach, so I’m going to stop taking them so that I can stop puking and actually keep food down. Yuck!!
My mom is having surgery on her thyroid on Friday. There is a mass and the docs don’t know whether it’s cancerous or not, so they are just going to remove it, and hopefully not take any or all of her thyroid at the same time.
D’s new cancer treatments seem to be helping. His docs say that he is not getting any worse, which is good, but I wish his cancer would go away. All the chemo and radiation seem to be doing is stalling it and not fixing it. He’s going to be coming to see me this weekend, and I’m really excited. I haven’t seen him in a month, and I really miss him.
I miss my son, G, too. I meant to call him yesterday, but I was in pain and medicated and missed my opportunity because I fell asleep. I’ll try again today when he gets home from school and hopefully I’ll be able to talk to him.
Well, that’s all I have for now. Hopefully I’ll have some good news about a job or school sometime soon.
Ciao!
