Whew…
…so, I “took a big girl pill” (as H said) and brought up to R my fears and worries, and it seems to have worked out pretty well. He brought up that he had pretty much the same insecurities as I do, and have agreed that time to prove things to each other is the best thing. So all is good. I feel much better about things now, and maybe I can sleep with ease (without the sleeping pills, they make me feel run down and woozy the day after). I even told him specifically what was bothering me and told me straight out that I have nothing to worry about. So maybe now I can relax and just be myself with him without having to worry about that other shit. Things are very very good. I can’t wait to see him at work tomorrow.
